long since i had posted. wait i go off fan. super cold....

ok.. hmm feeling neutral now. well, the reason i didnt post for the past week is because all are filled with negative thoughts, so i deleted them. well, but at least i found my answer, content in wat i have. tt was why i was so stressed up... at the beginning of the year, i kept pushing my limits to satisfied my sense of accomplishments. i mean, i dont like feeling useless... hmm, i got quite emo up especially on things i could not solve. it acts as a burden and frustration for me. hmm an thx GOD who leads and guides me, i found another word:contentment. hmm still, i feel far from perfect. hmm perhaps another thing tt bugs me was tt i worried too much for my future and stuff. thus i am not contented. i mean i kept thinking abt my purpose in future, seeking for my str and weaknesses coz i do not want to waste my life away. i dont want to work my life off in the society but to make use of my life to make a certain impact. well, perhaps being contented allows me to let go of worries. but i dont think it will be tt easy for me.

hmm i read blogs abt ppl's life and observed the ppl around me. hmm how much do one understand his/her purposes? well i came across a few whom i admired for certain qualities they possessed. hmm i found two, first:not to be named. i admired his sense of simplicity and he lived his everyday without worrying much and always smile. second also dont want to name lol: hmm to wat i feel, she placed friends and society before her, tt is one essential thing tt find important in friends, placing them before one's self.

well, i wont expect life to be smooth though, i understand it will be bumpy. hmm okay~~~ gtg slp.

So GOD bless Tcare gdnite cyaz.