hmm here to post after a long absence. Well, today was total crap... choir... hai i was scolded for not returning the key porperly.. dang... aanw it shows me the importance of having gd health.

anw lets not talk abt it. haha. hmm my discovery magazines are here woots. now i can have extra knowlegde from it. hmm anw thinking back to my childhood, i remember that at certain times or perhaps most of the time of life i like to think abt inventions. lol. every since i start studying science during priimary 3 and had interest in mechanics. but well mostly are aabout weapons :x.

hahabut as u expect, most of them are veryfantasy as my knowlegde of science still very little. haha i still do tt stuff sometimes when i am super bored. hmm but at least i find it more realistic now lol. haha, well to think abt the past, i admit tt i am failing as a chir vice chair.... hai, i dont really feel the passion to make a change. hmm perhaps just that nothing much was accomplished that encouraged me. well life have different pro and cons for different factors, example a factor may be gd to someone but bad to the other... zzz

and well my studies too, i admit i had been terrible this year. hai perhaps i lost my seriousness to my study. and to further add, the fact i keep feeling wat is my purpose to study so hard? well, all i usually from teacher is abt o level here and die, the traps and stuff. hai, i dont want my life to be just wasted in the workforce, where everyday is spent in earning money.

well, still i must get serious abt choir stuff again. i still had a dream to accomplish. hmm well i just want to make choir cca a place where when the members graduate, they wont regret the time spent there.

ah well, sometimes with my parents mood swings and quarrelling, i got extremely stressed up too. after all this years i find that wat a child really wanted whether sub concious or not is that they wanted to go past each day being happy. even if they done wrong, they will still be happy and learn from their mistakes. perhaps this is one mistake most parents have made. well example my church teacher, he and his wife teaches his son in a way where he tell him wat is room and guide him to make it correct and to make sure he is happy everyday. the result? he is learning very fast and hardly cries. At the age of around 1 and the half years old, he know how to iddentify the various parts of his body and know various key term such as cooking and stuff he oso know that cooking need food and he oso knows that piano plays music by pressing the keys to play songs. not only that, he can oso help me find stuff, lol. once when i was in the kitchen finding cups, he came in and look at me, then i say and use my hand to picture a cup to him. then he started finding for me, althought he and me cant find, he in the end bring a container to see if i can use it. lol rather interesting ^^.

well thinking when i was only a baby, i am a little bit identical lol, hmm only the fact that i hardly cry when i was small. well but my toys are legos haha. i love building stuff, especially trains, so i ended building various stuff according to wat i observe, example tunnels and overhead bridge and start to form my own structure such as making a train go over the overhead bridge and stuff. haha and my earliest achievement is i manage to dismantle a sharpner whiich is incorporated into a toy where when u push the button, a cylinder will start turning. well i nearly put it back together. welll and i love to play with my only soft toy haha. as i am the only child so i started to treat it as my friend and stuff bah. then i slowly started creating stories llol. using any objct in room as something, examlpe my bed can be a runway for aircraft LOL!

hmm kk let face the present again bah haha. hmm still have a long way to go. hm christian way of life is sure hard. but well, jyjy keen hoe

GOD bless Tcare gdnite cyaz!