hmm,life feels so stress. Hai in sch, i always constantly felt as if I am in a battlefield. Always a need to get better than the other, or fear of feeling useless. These creates walls between friendship and it really sucks. Then at cca, I feel as if i had not accomplish much, as if i am at the wrong place at the wrong time. hai and i am still worried for choir? wat have i dont as a comm member.... my only regrets is tt i never stand still for some decisions and oso got lazy. Well it is so hard to be a leader for me sometimes. I felt that i am more of a individual worker than a leader. Hai... Perhaps the greatest stress of being a leader is to make sure everyone gives u the respect. One wrong word or phrase can sometimes turn ppl away from u

Well nvm, i will just do my best with wat's left. Pray tt same mistakes will not happen at cell.....

However those are not all of my burdens. Loneliness(only child with not communicative inclined parents), my cratered face and some other things.

In fact sometimes i really want to be a hermit, i find socialising not natural at all. People will hate ur character and here i am constantly changing hoping tt least ppl could hate me. Well, perhaps it is my fear tt i dont want to accept ppl disliking me? In fact I preferred to be a joke rather than ppl having prejudice against me.

Well mother tongue O coming... and i really pray i will get distinction and never take tt O exam again.

KK God Bless tcare, gd nite cyaz